just dont read dis.

* im sowrie; i just duno wad got me.
haix. really in a not-so-gud mood now. =((
i duno y m i getting so moody nowadays.
often seem okie in the outside..
but i really duno wads happening to me wen im alone.
=( sighs. wad can i do? can anyone tell me?..

sch today as per normal.
eng, slacked the whole 2periods. -.-
mt, got back my paper.
48/70- paper ii
29/50 - compo.
77/120- for the overall.
darn worse, cud had done better. =(
nvms.. den recess.
3periods of maths.
failed my emaths, as xpected. =(
22/60. nvms..
social studies, ^^
mr. Dennis wont make me sleepy. =DDDD
chem, really dislyk chem.
wasnt paying attention anyways. =p
hist, did a short quiz thingy; SBQ. (:
end of sch; went to tution wid alexia.
wen mr kheng know i failed my emaths.
he kinda lyk scolded me of cuz.
and i tink alexia noes dat im not in such a gd mood..
cuz i was oso sad dat i failed my maths afterall..
she gave me a swit; which was kinda rare thing dat happens,
once in a while. and she kinda cheer me up a lil. (:
thnx alexia. =D
took mrt to bedok inter;
took 222 home. (:
reached home, dats all. (:

i really duno wads happen to me nowadays.
its not lyk the real me anymore.
actually i felt kinda sad to know somethings.
haix, although i cant prevent it from happening.
but i noe i cudnt blame her..
was kinda sry dat i said those outragous& un fair things to u.
i felt kinda sowrie.. but i guess ur not reading my blog anyways..
cuz u nvr-ed tagged me before. =/
i noe u care, but sometyms i find tings u do really made me feel kinda sensetive.
SRY, and i hope u still noe, i treat u lyk my BBESTIE. (:
just lyk alexia, (:
to her: i love you! ^^ [as a bestie, of cuz] just lyk how i love alexia too! ^^

i duno y m i still wishing for a miracle to happen..
y m still getting jealous wen i noe u r so close to her and i noe i cant react,
and act as if i dun care.. =(
i noe, i told u i understand.
and i really do understand.
but wad i dont understand is y i still cant forget bout u?
haix. i really duno y cant ppl's advice get into my head.
i just keep tinking abt u?
haix, i just wish one day u cud tell me dat u dont lyk me at all..
tell me straight into my eyes saying u hate me.
so dat i cud feel better dat way.
y m i writing dis stuffs? wen no one even care to take a look..
i really wish dat someone cud be you..
which is totally impossble.
and not gonna happen in a thousand yrs..

i just wished for someone to be dere wen i needed one.
no one was der.
i was left all alone..
no one noes i nid a listening ear and a crying shoulder..
just let me disappear in thin air..
*sry for dis post.
i just nid to vent out my own disappointment in myself..