to yt and angela,
its not everyone fault. and i noe hui ting and xueling are our frens.
but wad im trying to express is not dat. okie ? wad im trying to say,
is wad i cannot describe. its jux lyk a feeling i hav. okie ? dis
blog is public. how can i say everything out ?
plus, dis kinda feeling is really hard to describe?
haizz.
angela, okie wid dat. i dun get wad u r trying to say in
ur post. only de last part..
bout de movie thingy. ya i noe it was late wen i msged u.
but u msged mii too late too. i was oreadi in tution. and wen i noe yanteen
wen to de show too, i was damn furious.

i may sound lyk im tokin no sense.
bcux i duno wad im saying.
im too tired to say anything le.
mayb i typed all dat to defend myself ?
i duno ?

i can say,
im tired of all dis.
mentally and phsically.
im sick of all dis rubbish, crap and wadeva.
okie ? get it ? sick ler..
i cannot do anything anyway, tings oreadi lyk dat.
haizz.. forget everything. its hard to apologise okie ?
i jux cant bring myself to do dat.

forgive and forget is sth easier to b said den done
sth dat is really hard.
no one is making de first move to apologise.
and i can say, i cannot make de first move.
bcux i cant even bring myself in typing de word sry
even in my blog. haizz.
not bcux im still angry or wad.
in fact, im not even angry or wad le.
its jux.. ahya, i duno how to describe my feelins again ?
refused to ? im too stubborn ? i duno ?
im out of my mind, im GOIN CRAZIE SOON !!
haizz.