i hate dorothy.
she forced me to go seoul garden even
wen im sick! ROAR.
=P orhwell, iM BEING FORCED TO ACC HER TO SEOUL GAREN,
ALONG WID JESLEY. =D

dorothy typing, THATS WHY I LOVE XINYI :D

XINYI HERE, YEAH YEAH, U FORCED ME TO GO, WEN IM SICK LEI! )=

okay, out for now.
bies. =D

going to the airport later wid yanteen and ppl, i guess.
but im still not feeling dat well. X=
hrm, hopefully can get well soon.. X=

i tink i didnt update for quite some tym.
i apologize for dat. xD

YESTERDAY.
went to the airport ytd wid yanteen, xueling, iris and kamal.
i tink we played more den we studied.
GOSH, y is it always lyk dis. -.-
anyway. we were all lyk luffing lyk hell lar.
photos are posted in yanteen and kama's blog.
so, i dont have to update here. =D
caught the flu bug bcuz i lent diana my jacket. )=
was really very sick wen i got home, bathed,
took some flu medicine, and went to slp straight.

bleah, before going to the airport, was chi paper 2 and
eng paper 1. i didnt have the tym to complete eng paper 1. -.-
for compo, i did qns 2, which was on tragedy.
i guess i wont score well for dis paper 1 though,
i tink i wont do well, i didnt finish my situational writing. X=
mt paper 2 was quite okay, i tink.
i duno, but the compre on the charity was quite difficult. X=
so another paper im gonna flunk. )=

lastly, for the tagboard replies.
DOROTHY: love yeah too. =DD,
but dont be too upset bout that
ting okay? (: im owaes der for u, rmb. (:
takkires too!
i dun wanna c you sad. )=
DIANA: ure a sickoooo! =p
ALEXIA: lol, yeah yeah. but you been treating me bad lyk forever. =p
ANGELA/MISS YAP: lol, =D no prob lar, =D happie good, good. LOL.
ZW: GOOD LUCK TOO! (;
IRIS: HELLLOS. =D

good luck for all,
mid yr is coming up alrdy! (:
work hard and strive for the best. ;)



i never thought i needed you there when i cried-

anyway, my new sofa; dat jus came on saturday. (;

just reached home at 5plus.

was kinda tired and mum was lyk scolding my sister again.

(bcuz she dirted the new sofa. __)

sick and tired of those kinda scoldings.

everytime she scolds someone in the house,

even if it isnt me who is the one getting scolded,

i will feel terrible.kinda feel lyk she's indirectly shooting me too. X=

shall learn to reflect on myself. X=

nvm, shall chose to ignore her/dem/her scoldings. X=

just felt kinda low recently,alot of tings happen in sch and at home.

(its lyk im feeling low, every week. -.-)

orhwell, have to finish up my F&N.

de deadline is tml. X=
school today was as per normal.

nth much to update bout sch? hrm.
after sch, had lunch in the coffee shop wid

andre, kamal, hui ting, zhi wei and martine(horny. xD)

had xtra maths lesson after lunch.

we all left kinda early,

bcuz wedges was angry with the class fornot paying attention, hrm.

feeling kinda bad for not paying attention. X=

had to lower the flag for the day, so stayed till 4plus before taking 38 home.

DIANA SOH IS A SICKO! X=

she just is lar, its too paiseh to

type wad she did to me. X=

SICKO. SICKO. SICKOOOOOOOOO! XD

anyways, its just dat SA1 is really near, and i

haven even started studying my comb sci,

which im weakest at. X=

only for chem, a lil. not the rest.

haix, wont pass it anyway. so i dun even feel lyk studying.xD

i failed my maths DT, again.and again, and again. -.-

hrm. got 22/60.

okay, nvm bout dat.

apologises to alexia, i tink i been treating you kinda lyk

bad recently, i oso duno for wad. X=

orhwell, i tink its my mood, and sometimes,

small lil tings made me kinda pissed wid you,

for no reason lar.okay, the prob lies with me, sry, alexia. X=

sry for that lil qurrel dis morning in the canteen. X=

and apologises dorothy too, i lied to you tell you im okay,

im really really sry. i didnt feel lyk saying anything just now.

sry, dorothy.i noe u have ure own probs wid ..

but i wanna tell you dat im der for you always. (:

i noe that things had been hard for you.

and i really wanna apologize for wad i have done wrong to you. X=

i noe i nvr been there wen you needed someone. X=

takkires, i really dun wan to see unhappie stuffs happen to you.

i noe ure a really really gd fren, and its her prob for not cherishing you.

and sometimes i do feel guilty for not cherishing you as a fren too.

haix, i really things will turn out okay for you.

you have been lyk bottling everything in and in ure hart again and again,

not letting dem out, sometimes i really feel lyk i fail being a fren..

just hope that tings will turn out okay, eventually.

im really sry, dorothy..

but,

i was really suprised how you noe

i was not okay at that very second.

jus shocked dat you noe dat im not okay. X=

wasnt dat okay,bcuz my mum was lyk screaming ard the hse, again. X=

hrm, nth happened between me and alexia. (;

i tink wad june told you is de lil agruement btween me and

alexia dis morning.nth much, so dont worry bout me okay? (:

takkires too! (:

i noe u were absent for the day,

so you better go drink tons of water and rest well! (:

no worries, bcuz ders no worksheets or wad given out today,

so i didnt hlp you take anything. xD

siew min took ure chinese handouts for you alrdy. (:

orh dorothy, thnx for the concern. (:

thanks thanks thanks. (:

<3333s.>

that kinda feeling; cant be defined.

was it some kinda special feeling or

just my own imagination?

get the facts clear, me.

that ure not gonna love me-

DAT DAY WAS SATUDAY. (:
met hui ting, angela and yanteen.
went to the airport's macdonalds to study. (:
hahs, had tons of fun taking fotos and slacking(wen
we were supposed to studie!-.-)
orhwell, had fun acting cute. =P( i noe i shuck at dat. xD)

and chit-chatting lar.

got chased out by the macdonalds staffs. xD
went to tampines mall after dat. xD
had seoul garden for dinner, mad moments.
we were luffing and eating at the same tym. -.-
orhwell, catched mr. bean holiday(freaking long-ago show)
after dat, but it was darn funny anyway. xDD

went to pierce my 3rd right hole after dat, along wid yanteen. ^^
not pain at all, happie. =D
had to stop eating seafood and some other stuffs for awhile. )=

lol, had fun for the overall. (:




me and diana! (:


TODAY. (;
happie slacking day. (;
shall not elaborate much on today, its just
a typical monday, anyways. (:
got my gong han and shi han marks bak.
gong han= 9/20. -.-
shi han= 12/20. -.-
darn paiseh for my own marks, being in a band1 chinese
class, my standard shldnt be lyk dis. haix,
shld improve. (:
got a glimpse of my chi language paper, 69/100.
DARN DARN DARN. -.-
i shld really buck up alrdy. )=

*anyways, had to thnx diana for hlping me draw my shoes
with those lovable harts! (:
loooove yeah. =D


wash away those unhappie moments as time passes;
get away with those never healing injuries.
hide them, in the deepest corner of ure hart-

just smth random, suddenly thot of death note. xD

feel lyk posting again.
alot of stuffs ran through my mind just now.
i duno wad kinda feeling is dis. X=
i wan to work hard, strive for the best.
but somehow, everytime i vow to do smth well,
i tend to give up again and again.
its always the same things that happen.
can i just work hard and get it over wid someday?
haix, i really duno wth am i doing to my lyfe.
ruinning it perhaps, one day, i`ll just ruin myself.

i duno why do i still feel so affected by you?
i thot i told myself to give up?
i thot i got over wid it, but somehow i didnt, again. ._.
it happened again and again and again.
how many agains are der gonna be?

dont ask me bout wth happened to me,
cuz i hell-ly duno what happend to me too.
ending here.

when ure lyfe is on the rocks;
close ure eyes and tell urself, everything will turn out okay someday.
be happie, dat you're at least more fortunate bcuz u got urself, urself and urself.
have faith. (:

just another day.

hrm. today was so just-another-typical-day.
LOL, maths. didnt pay attention, obviously. =P
i really really duno how to do that particular topic on graphs
tcher is teaching right now. -.-
recess, stayed in class and ate zhi wei's porridge,
which he cooked it for carmen and alexia. (;
super niceee. =D thnx, zhi wei! =D
den F&N, fcuk, i got 1.5/30 for my essay qns. ._.
yeah, i noe. im lousy, super lousy at F&N.
zzz, was not even paying attention wen tcher was going through the corrections.
no longer give it a damn.

went for some meeting in the sj room wid the TIC of sj.
dicussed bout some stuffs. hrm. X=
went to coffee shop for lunch, chit-chatted and went home ard 3plus. (:
saw dhana, billy and some peeps wearing the blue jacket for the asher.
dey look quite cool actually. (:

saw jocelyn at the bus stop just now, (:
i tink she didnt see me/she forgotten me alrdy.
xD she didnt say hie or wadsoever.
orhwell. (:

duno wth to do now.
nth much i can do at home.
plus, i got bravo meeting tm AT GENKI(did i spelt it correctly?)
sir yong qing must tink dat we're all very rich to go genki for just a meeting. =p
and just bcuz he works at genki, we must go der for meeting? ._.
kies lar, i was just kidding. xD

photos took on dorothy's bday. (:





some fotos were taken in sch. (;
some at pastamania. (:
some at dorothy's hse. (:
all on dorothy's bday. =D

the splattering sound of the rain;
that raindrop that seeped through my heart;
that particular moment-
i was dat close to you.

hhahhahs. (:
im at dorothy's hse now. =p
decided to be late for sch. X=
hrr. yesterday was dorothy's bday. =D
HAPPIE BELATED BIRTHDAY CUTTIE! ^^
sch yesterday was okay. (:
forget wad i did in sch, so skip dat part.
to wad happened after sch, =D
went to tm to fetch dorothy's cake. (:
den went bak to sch to find dorothy. (:
throwed a lil party for her in the sch canteen. (:
she got tons of big stuffed toys. =(
makes me jealous. =p

went out wid dorothy and jesley. (:
to bugis, went to eat pastamania! ^^
since ages dat i ate pastamania. X=
hrm, walked ard, ate some stuffs and went to cold storage to get the stuffs
for our chemistry proj. (:

went home after dat. dorothy came over to my place to finish up on our chemistry
proj. tried the experiment lyk 4tyms den we got the effect rite and took the video.
Lol, tried to finish up on the slide shows and file.
everything ended at 1plus in the morning. (:
we were both lyk half died alry at dat tym. X=
went to slp, and i realized, i cudnt slp. -.-
wth, i tink i only had 2hrs plus of slp. =(
very exhausted as for now. xD


some things just happened ytd. (:
not some really happie stuffs, and kinda affected my mood to continue
wid my chemistry proj. X=
i wish i did say anything, haix.
cant really regret over wad i alry said/done.
all i cud to is to flare at myself. -.-
hrm. dont feel lyk toking bout it anymore, it really make me very sad,
unexpected, seriously. i tot it will be nth, nth at all.
but it affected me lyk hell, i felt lyk crying initially.
but i didnt.. dont wan to, my parents will come over and ask me wads happening..
haix, forget it. wad done is done.
made me moodless just to tok bout it.. X=
stop pondering bout it, XIN YI! CHEEEEER UP! ^^
=D

tmd. im SUPERRR pissed with some ppl! -.-
nvm, i shall not mention who.
and if u really give that darn proj a damn.
start doing smth bout our chem proj.
and u dont even noe. .. ?
wth. nvm. nvm.
FORGET IT;
YES, i noe my attidute towards u
when i was msg-ing u was kinda harsh.
and made me felt kinda sowrie.
BUT, its dat. im just pissed! -.-
sowrie. X=

i just dont know;
what am i expecting out of dis nothing;
i think of you;
i just think of you-

HELLOOOs. (:
starting my tuesday post wid some neos i took last saturday.

SATURDAY.
went for sj training and had our very first POP.
i did crop up, but hope it didnt affect the whole performance much. X=
hrm, after dat was CMC meeting in the canteen.
orhwell, didnt xpected something lar.
but oso didnt xpect i`ll still be in training wing.
went home after dat, dorothy,alexia&dorothy's fren, jesslyn,
came to my hse to do our chemistry proj. (:
hahs, had tons of fun at home.
went to tamp mall after alexia went home.
had dinner at long john and joked ard lyk nobody's ard. =p
tok some REALLY SUPER RETARTED neos and went home.
intially, wanted to watch a movie, but didnt.
as it was kinda late and we all had to go home. )=
hhas, really had fun dat day.
and glad i got to noe jesslyn, she's really a nice&RETARTED person. (:

TODAY.
english for the first two periods.
went through our DT paper.
i got 27/50; as xpected. i noe i cudnt score at compre. =p
did some corrections for myself and dorothy, she's absent today.
and hope she is well by now. (:
hahs, then mt. tang lao shi didnt come today.
had to do cloze passage, super duper sian-ness. =p
obviously, i copied from alexia. =p
den it was reccess, stayed in class wid elaine, martin&zhi wei.
crapped more den we studied ss. xD
and shared a kinder buneo wid elaine. (:
thanks dearest NUER. =D
*ZHI WEI, u own me a buneoooo! =P
lol. den it was maths, we went to the computer lab,
we were all lyk 'WOOOOs!'
didnt pay attention lar, how are u gonna pay attention to wedges
(mr veney, hell. i duno how to spell his name! =p)
wen ure cud do ure own stuffs w/o him catching u do so? =p
den it was ss, had a SEQ for CA. wth, im so gonna fail dat one.
i was supposed to ryte 8paras, and i only wrote 5? and the tym's alrdy up! )=
super sad, but. feel kinda guilty, cuz i noe the qns before i even had that test..
haix, guiltyyyy me.
went for phys at the sci lab, i was sitting alone at the front row,
cuz alot of ppl were absent today, and no one cud sit
wid me, cuz their is an odd num of students in the class today.
zulaika&grp had their phy proj presentation, the video was not bad, but just kinda short.
the presentation, was kinda unclear and lengthy. X=
hist, was sms-ing, AND wth-ly,
i didnt paid attention and im having a CA on it nxt weeek. -.-
END OF SCH.

after sch, went to find the F&N tcher, but the door was locked.
and didnt find her in the end. went to coffee shop to find the two lovables,
hui ting and alexia. had lunch and hui ting went off to do her phy proj. (:
waited for angela and xueling to come, had lunch along wid TANhui ting.
went to sch to do their phy proj. LOL.
stayed at the coffee shop and luff-ed and luff-ed and luff-ed lar.
LOL. went in to sch to do THEIR proj.
TANhui ting had to rush off for her HMT, so we all went off. (:
end of the day. =D

TYJ. i noe i nid to start revising. =p
and im doing so.
so dont force me to do tys! =p!

SOMETYMS, its not just something bout you&me;
i really dont know why, things turn out to be this way-

haix, wad a typical sunday.
rotted at home as usual.
dint studied AT ALL; i dint have the mood to.
der are just too many stuffs on my mind ryte now.
i really duno how to solve dem.
dun even feel lyk facing dem.
WTH, why did my lyfe turn to be lyk dis?
haix, dats not something i have control over, i just have to accept it.

had a really great chat in MSN wid terrence dat day.
he kinda advise me on wad i shld do on smths.
(: he's a nice guy larh.

TAGBOARD REPLIES.
iris: hahs, i found out y i cudnt have colours in my posts, and i can have dem now. =p
andre: thats bcuz i noe alot of ppl wid blogs. =p
TYJ: wth, -.- i hate chem! =p
diana: hey, i saw u too! ^^
alexia: -.- hahahahh. funny? lol.

albert: err. i dun get you. xD
rachel: hahs. (: no prob. =D

the empty aisle; that cold street.
my heartbeat just stopped-

HHA. today had been a bad day. (:

somehow i duno how to face it, the fact.
i really duno how i shld react, or do wadsoever.
haix, i really dun wan dis to happen.
y wud dis kinda ting happen?
u been so cold towards me nowadays.
i tink u mayb starting to hate me?
i really duno.
i really really wan to tell u the truth,
dat i noe dat we're drifting apart.
i canT bring myself to do it. )=
i duno how to start that topic, i really wish i noe
how to tell u dat. )=

WTH. i finally found out why i cannot put colours in my blog. -.-
stupid blogger, =p.
nahs, im the stupid one. xD

today is friday, the 13th.
which is oso known as black friday. xD
hrm. maths was first.
dint do much, juz the quiz corrections for similarity.
i got 2/10. -.- it was expected anyway. (:
i just shuck at maths. =D
F&N. mdm change didnt come today.
leaving us wid a relief tcher in class for the first two periods.
we were playing truth-or-dare. -.-
it was kinda lame larh, but were funny too. (:
those dare we did was all nth but bullshit. xD
most of dem had to sing/dance.
lol, yeah. but some of dem really can sing really well. (:
amirah and even maisarah(i duno whether i got her name correct. xD)
some of the voices were especially good. (:
yeah, had fun luff-ing and knowing SOME shocking news.
i was REALLY suprised. xD
but i cudnt say it here. X=
(ask me and i may tell u, =P)
nxt 3periods of F&N, was spent in the computer lab. xD
doing nth much, bcuz i left my F&N AT HOME. -.-
so i cud only blog and surf the net, blahblah. xD

later. dere will be standby sj room. X=
and speech day rehersal, which does not involve me. xD
hrm, SA1 is getting nearer each day.
dread of it. X=

ENDING HERE. (:

OKAY.
new blogskin means a new lyfe is given to my blog. (:
i tink i will try to update everyday. (:
currently doing my f&n.
and im juz lyk SLACKING at the same tym?
lol. (:
from 7pm till now, i only managed to do one part of my
whole F&N thingy.
orhgod, wth am i doing?
xD

gahgahgahgahgah. =P
sch today was okie. (:
PE, 2.4 run. i was walking the whole tym.
having stomach cramp. if not i wont be walking. -.-
hrm. den physics, as usual.
i wasnt paying attention. xD
do u ever c me paying attention to phy?
when u have a tcher in front of the class named mr desmond goh?
he's hell. -.-
den recess. WOO. xD
(students typically come to sch for the sake of recesses.)
LOL. den it was english. (:
i enjoyed speaking french, =D
ms safia was gd at it. (:
lesson today was super hysterial. (:
just some craps. xD.
went for assembly.
some brazilian dance thingy? lol. xD
but it was kinda intersting. (:

MATHS DT SHUCKED.
im gonna FAILLLLL. (:
stupid qns bout that swimming pool.
(dis happens when ure not someone who noe how to swim. who the hell will noe the volume of the swimming pool? -.- )
kies larh, dat was a maths qns. it got nth to do wid whether i cud swim or not. xD
juz trying to be lame here. (;

DT ended at 4; went to clear up sj room.
for tml's standby sj room. =(
orhwell.
(dis happens wen u dont work hard to clean up sj room.)
and tml is friday the 13th.
BLACK FRIDAY LEI.

ENDING HERE. (:
love all. (:

so yesterday.

sry for the no updates period. X=
i was banned from the comp for one week,
due to my bill stuffs.
xD

until now, my bill still haven come. =(
but i told my parents bout it, dats y im
banned from the comp. xD

thnx for those who tagged me, saying u
guys wanna sponser me, -.-
total madness. =p

tag replies. (:
alexia: yeah, i noe ure dere. (: but, not for meeee. =P
rachel: thnx. (: yeah, but my bil is really really xpensive. =(
cy: thnx too, i did cry, xD but, nvm. xD but, how did u noe dat i used my hp's internet dat caused my bill to be that xpensive? xD yeah, i agree wid u, for the 5months 30dollars ting. =P
IRIS&ANGELA: nahs, u both cant hlp me afford the bill, =p u both only can joke. =p
xinyi: thnx too. (: hahs, no worries. im fine now. xD 30dollars a month is totally IMPOSSILBE FOR ME. xD wid my smsES, etc. =p
nadya o.O? okies, will relink u soon. =p
albert okies, soon. (:
TYJ: YES, U WILL. =P
i duno y the hell i cant display colours in my posts.
wth is wrong wid blogger? -.-
nvms. i shall live on wid colourless posts. =P
sch today was okay. (:

from 090407, i had decided dat i shall start to studie HARD. (:
im gonna pass my maths and comb sci dis coming SA1. (:
WOOs.

i really thot alot dat particular nite,
i really shldnt be living lyk dis. (:
i shall stop playing so much of maple and
start to live the correct kinda lyfe.
so, i thot i will work hard,
and get into that particular course i wan to enter
in poly. (:

hui ting suggested i shld go for Anger-Magnagment courses.
but i find myself alright? =P
duno luh, xD
i admit i do have a bad temper.
but i`ll try to control it! (:
lol, i tink u shld go for Stop-The-Blurness courses,hui ting.
& yanteen.
u cud acc hui ting to those courses. =P
xD

its lyk, i duno wads going on.
hrm.

BAD DAYS,
SO MANY OF DEM.

today;
did flag raising duty in the morning.
i noe i dint do a gd job. X=
maths for the first two periods.
shuck-ed lyk hell.
just had to get used to maths lessons wid mrs ng.
after DAT event.
haix.
den mt.
copy copy copy stuffs from the whiteboard.
wad more do we do?
haix.
recess.
chemisty.
went to the lab, miss ng was kinda pissed.
duno wad got her.
got bak our quiz, i got 4.5/30.
yeah, i noe. im gd at it,
FAILING.
hist, was really tired.
slpt for awhile.
dint get caught anyways.xD
phy, mr goh wasnt even teaching.
we were all doing our own stuffs.
end.

wen for tution wid alexia.
funny luh.
dint pay much attention, AGAIN.

MY BILL.
is gonna burst.
i tink for those who know wad happen are luff-ing
at me now.
lyk TAN HUI TING
I DUNO HOW TO XPLAIN TO MY PARENTS.
I DUNO WAD TO XPLAIN TO MY PARENSTS.
I DUNO HOW WILL DEY REACT UPON RECIEVING THAT BILL.
I DUNO WTH SHLD I DO IN THE FUTURE.
I DUNO WILL DEY EVEN CUT OFF MY LINE. (I HOPE DEY DO, SOMEHOW.)
I DUNO WHETHER I WILL BE CRYING? (I NOE I WILL, SOMEHOW.)
I DUNO WTH, SHLD I DO.
I DUNO HOW TO CARRY ON WITH DAT GUILT UNTIL MY BILL COMES.
I DUNO, SO MANY DUNOs.

sry.
in a low mood.
i DUNO, wad got me, wads happening to me.
im DYING.