Haiz. First day of sch. So damn. I hate where im sitting. Grh. Dun wanna tok bout it le la, grhh. Haiz. Im so damn sad lor. Haiz. Wen can u noe my feelings? Im really tired le. Haiz.

Haiz. First day of sch. So damn. I hate where im sitting. Grh. Dun wanna tok bout it le la, grhh. Haiz. Im so damn sad lor. Haiz. Why? >.< wen can u noe my feelings? Haiz. Im really really tired le. Haiz..

hey !
it was course day 3 jux now ?
lol. haiz. 240606, junco combined camp jux ended,
i will miss bravo and de whole junco de ! (:
hope dey miss mii too la, lol~
okie, more bout today,
today, first parade, den we had de
zone test.. which was kinda difficult,
cux i got alot of qns i duno how to do..
lol. after dat was first aid M.O.I,
damn, we dint hav laptop in de classroom !~
den we had to present using de white board.
which was kinda hard for mii ? haiz..
nvm, im really disappointed wen i looked at de file,
my performance was.. its okie..
haiz.. jux disappointed in myself..

hmm. back frm creative warehouse sale ~
XD. mood now is hype man ~
so happie. lol. (:
bought a Creative ZEN Neeon.
lol. (: so happie man. lol.
dat was my birthday present la,
at first met my mum at bedok intechange de top up ez-link der..
den we went to hav lunch at KFC.
den we tok mrt to Jurong East.
den der was a free shuttle bus to bring us to our destination.
lol. after dat, we went to de place la. very nice place wid aircon.
lol. (: we brose around and found my creative ZEN.
;) yupp. den we tok de shuttle bus bck to Jurong East mrt station..
went to popular to buy some pens too.
den we took mrt hme. lol.. ddats all barh. (:
stay happie and smile ! ((:

haiz. back for another day, it so late le. and alexia dun let mii slp.
shld i go back and play maple ? lol. suddenly feel so energetic.. lol. (:
hmm. i was so pissed off wid de public duty ting lor.
at first tell us public duty cancel liaox. den happy happy agreeing on
goin to crative de warehouse sale, on friday, den cant go public duty lo.
jux now jux finsh my first aid M.O.I prsentation.
den hlped angela too wid her ppt slides.
lol. i find myself doing de slides really slowly, for mine la.
dun y leh. mayb im doin too many things at one tym barh.
at first felt very pissed off of all de work and stuff.
but felt better wen a guy, i dun even noe hu, noe him through msn actually.
he actually cheered mii up wid his lame jokes.
lol. den it brighten up de atmosphere alot. (:
blah, today morning wen to studie wid yanteen and guys.
dint did much of my hw.
i kept luffing for no reason.
lol. den we went to yoshinoya to hav our lunch.
and wen to bread talk to buy some bread. (:
yummy. wen to b1 de staircase to eat lor. den saw nathan der.
den after dat, i and alexia wen to tution. bad day la ~
dun tok bout it ler.
tmr goin to creative de warehouse sale, buying mp3 der !!~
my mum buying for mii. for my birthda present. (:
so happie. dorothy goin too. (: im so happie. lol. (:

haiz ! how long its gonna take !~
maple's patching now. den i cannot play..
T.T mayb will do some holiday homework barh. (:
lol. hmm. later doroth is coming to my hse to do homework.
lol. she asked mii to go out to acc her do her new ez-link der
but i dun wan to.. lol.. she wid fang yi, im too lazy ! lol. (:
i found a great song on my tutor hp ytd. i duno hu's
sang de song, so i cant search for him on de internet, so
i jotted dwn de lyric all by myself while listening to it, it was
an easy job bcux it was only a short chrous part. (:
i really love de lyrics. here goes ~

till de end-
in my heart,
i can no longer hold inside.
all of the love i used to hide,
i'll always be
with you, until the very end.
in this world,
there is no place i'll rather be,
you're my life, my soul, my girl.
and through it all,
i know you'll come to see,
that you're the one,
till the end..

sweet ryte ? im sooo touched. (:
but too bad i duno hu sang dis song. aww ~
suddenly found dat its great having a blog.
lol. jotting dwn all de events happening can b fun..
haha. lame la, lol. (:

back frm my haircut,
lol. hmm. no difference la,
for mii. but de rest..
quite big difference barh.
esp xueling. (:
lol.. after de haircut, we went to buy
some hairnet and stuffs. (:
and we got our thin thin de hairnet. (:
LOL.. nth much le,
takkire ppl ! and smile more.
once again,
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY, JUNE !

hey hey, later goin to june's hse
before meeting yanteen and guys ~
(: nth much to blog bout.
so, jux wanna say,
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY JUNE !
SMILES AND TAKKIRE. (:

well, back frm my 'outing' ?
the omen was sooooo scary.
lol.. i kept closing my eyes. lol.
and tokin to angela, until angela find mii too noisy..
lol. (: de show was okie, for de overall.
after de show, we went to buy some stuffs and
settled dwn wid some food at de building opposite of de CPF building.
we were lyk so xtra der.. all de ppl der was lyk de working class.
but we students.. lol. it was funny.
we took some pictures. but due to my fringe.
i dint take too many photos. hhax.
lol. and got some things too, my pencilbox.
and yanteen got her shoes. but i haven got mine.
due to my injury. T.T den got june's present too !
mayb visiting her tmr. at her hse.
after de haircut barh.
tmr's appointment at one.
cant wait to cut my hair.
bcux i hateee my fringe ! xD

hey hey, later goin out
to watch de omen wid yanteen and angela.
and mayb alexia. will she b coming ? im not very sure. (:
aniwae, my tagboard got some prob. i cant c my tagboard ! so,
i wont b able to reply anything on de tagboard.
so sowrie guys. hahax.
so excited for later. and yanteen, ders nth to b afaird of !. (:

haiz, i haven finish my holiday hw and reading up
for my zone test. omg omg. so scared.
lol.. hope everythings turn out okie. and
i can finish my stuffs early. (:

hmm. finally back frm a long long 5 days 4 nites
camp. and it was really tough. both metally and phsically,
day 1,
we toke two tests, one is de
order of st. john. de other one is leadership.
de koto test was really difficult. practically is bcux i dint studie.
de leadership test was okie i suppose.
other den dat i forgotten was else we did during day 1.
day 2,
endurance training. i almost died at sir alvin's station.
den after dat later at nyte was
bunk inspection. we carried de tables here and der.
very very tiring.
and i hav to say sry to someone.
really sry. haizz.
jux bcux of my selfishness.
day 3,
we went to Pula Ubin.
stayed overnite der.
really really fun day.
we went for a hike at first. den
after we returned to de camp site,
den we had dinner, den it was de confidence walk.
we were told to walk in pairs and walk through de
forest ourselves. i was grouped wid nicholas.
actually he was not was not scared de.
but he was scraced by mii.
lol.. den de instructors all hide around de route we were taking.
to scare us. i was scarced 3 times in total.
den we sleeped in de tent at nyte.
day 4,
we had traige, which we did badly.
and we had to redo it again at nyte.
cousing de cancelation of de social nyte.
we were sad and sowrie for de charlies.
we spoiled de nyte for dem. -x
de traige did during de nyte was okie,
but it was only average.
cux it was still very messy.
haizz.
day 5,
changing parade,
haf way through it, i had breathing difficulty.
and was sent to medic.
haiz. after i joined back,
dey were having some sort of sturcture game.
it was tiring, but still fun. after dat was something lyk pre camp,
packing all our stuffs and arranging everything back to order.
den it was camp debrief, den it was photo taking session,
den, last parade ! end of camp.

overall, really had lots of new experinces dat i had nver had before.
of cux it was such a pity dat yuda, who booked out was not part of it,
and nath, could not attend camp. its was sad dat dey cudnt attend junco cmap wid us.
and being a couse ic was not easy. suddenly reliased dat shermain did a great job and
including all de course i/cs,
and platoon ics too. bravo team 7, it was fun being wid u guys.
u all were de best. our tc, sgt andy and atc, cpl yin zhi,
thx for encouging us everytime durng our meal times.
junco camp, sth to rmb, really memorable 5 days 4 nytes.
days of enduring, we will nvr forget.
i love bravo, or even de whole junco. (:
WITH PRIDE, WE LEAD.

PROJECT RUNWAY rawkks la.
spent my nyte watchin project runway.
frm 1030pm to 1130pm. lol
den msged alexia happy birthday at 12..
she dint even say thank you, humph.
anyway, im now at yt's hse.
lol. hmm. dey r playing mahjong, and heRe im blogging ! lol.
we bought a cake for alexia, my idea. lol.
we hven 'presented' e cake to her ~
hope she lyk it.. lol. ((:
tokin bout today, i meeted yanteen at her hse dwstairs,
den we took bus to tamp mart, den met angela, we
went shopping for de cake, fond two shopes elling cakes, one begawan solo and
another one was a shop, i duno how to spell de name of de shop. ;p
we decided to buy de cake from de cake shop i duno how to spell de name dat shop la.
lol. haizz. tmr der will b pre camp and i haven even start to pack my stuffs !
haizz. muz start packing ler, lol. ((:
okie, takkire ppl ! XD

well,
yet another tiring day,
one plus wen for tution and finished
bout 3plus. met yanteen and de rest to get our stuffs, for
camp, i forget to get de
most important thing ! so damn tao yan.

lol. XDD i start to wonder..
y i 'anyway' so much ? and
nth much to say.
so, such a short post !~

well, really sad wen i heared june saying
dat he found someone he lyked..
haiz.. mayb its tym to giv up.
its really hard. i duno y m i still holding on wen
i hav no place in his hart.. hmm..
mayb, its really tym dis tym. haizz.
sad. really sad dis tym.
anyway, alexia, takkire !~ AWW.
and im suprised ur touched.
by our present.
its jux sth simple. and its to make
up wad i did last yr.. dint get u a present last yr..
lol. and luckily ur bdae dis yr dint clash wid
junco camp. xDD
well, mayb we qurrel alot la,
but thx for standing at my side
wen i needed u, althought u tease mii alot ~
but getting used to it is jux part of lyfe.
well, gd buddies !~
i dun wanna end up in de same klass as u nxt yr.
okok, kiddin. ((:
may ur wishes com true and i tink u received de
best present ever barh ! hope it is ! ((:
and its tym to grow up ! xDD
lol.. actually kinda sowire dat ur bdae
will b spent at yanteen's hse.
dint hav a chance to really go out to celebrate.
hmm. sowrie ? lol..
and i suddenly soo nice to u ?
haiz, thx for recommanding de tution to mii ?
once again,
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY ! ((:

finally finish editing my profile in frenster.
editing my photos,
now goin back to maple le.
tmr der will b tution, sianx
and oso goin to get tings wid yanteen and
guys for de camp. and anyway,
im so tired. my neck's aching.
grHhs. pain. lol. (:
takkire ppl. till nxt tym.
tata ~

course day o2; JUNCO.

ARHs.
lost de prevoius post bcux my comp was
lagging. arGH.
anyway, ytd was course day o2.
not many instructors came.
mayb all of dem nid to go to sch ? xD
hmm. first parade, flag bearers
were junco shermain, hui ting and angela.
haizz. bcux none of us wan to volunteer.
we had to stay in knock-it-dwm position.
for very long ? hmm. of cux, all of our knee caps were pain.
after dat was lecture, lecture, lecture AGAIN.
HAIZ. first lecture, at de library
was by a sir frm tampines corps.
abt public duty. i wasnt listening cux i was
sitting at de back. unable to concentrate.
and de lecture was boring.
nxt lecture was by sir james. a lecture bout decision making
another boring lecture. yawns.
den after dis lecture, we moved to de AVT.
another lecture was conducted by a mdm frm wad corps, i not very sure.
anyway, she taught us bout de order of ST. JOHN,
which most of us, sont understand. but i did listen.
and she gave away sweets to those
ppl hu answered her qns. lol.
after dat was lunch.
chicken rice again. haizz. and de stupid 10 little pigs
storie made us so paiseh lor. grHhS.
anyway, after lunch we proceeded to de avt again,
for de nxt lecture bout group discussion,
by mdm joyce. a lecture which i really listened and
understand. (:
nxt lecture by sir chen. intersting lecture bout leadership.
oso a lecture i listened but towards de end. i dint pay attention le.
xD after dat lecture we had a briefing bout flag lowing and raising.
it was raining at dat tym. and we had to hav our last parade in
de porch. after at, we changed dwn to pt kit.
left sch and had dinner at uncle's shop lyk usual.
and left for hme. (:

to yt and angela,
its not everyone fault. and i noe hui ting and xueling are our frens.
but wad im trying to express is not dat. okie ? wad im trying to say,
is wad i cannot describe. its jux lyk a feeling i hav. okie ? dis
blog is public. how can i say everything out ?
plus, dis kinda feeling is really hard to describe?
haizz.
angela, okie wid dat. i dun get wad u r trying to say in
ur post. only de last part..
bout de movie thingy. ya i noe it was late wen i msged u.
but u msged mii too late too. i was oreadi in tution. and wen i noe yanteen
wen to de show too, i was damn furious.

i may sound lyk im tokin no sense.
bcux i duno wad im saying.
im too tired to say anything le.
mayb i typed all dat to defend myself ?
i duno ?

i can say,
im tired of all dis.
mentally and phsically.
im sick of all dis rubbish, crap and wadeva.
okie ? get it ? sick ler..
i cannot do anything anyway, tings oreadi lyk dat.
haizz.. forget everything. its hard to apologise okie ?
i jux cant bring myself to do dat.

forgive and forget is sth easier to b said den done
sth dat is really hard.
no one is making de first move to apologise.
and i can say, i cannot make de first move.
bcux i cant even bring myself in typing de word sry
even in my blog. haizz.
not bcux im still angry or wad.
in fact, im not even angry or wad le.
its jux.. ahya, i duno how to describe my feelins again ?
refused to ? im too stubborn ? i duno ?
im out of my mind, im GOIN CRAZIE SOON !!
haizz.

course day o1; JUNCO.

BRAVO ~
lol. course day o1, not bad day i suppose but our speed really
slow barh. all de instructors scolded us bout our speed. x(
at first fall-ed in at 7plus in de early morning.
sianx ~ den stand der very very long den first parade.
first parade. we did sth wrong AGAIN.
argHh. after dat we had team interaction !~
sgt andy and cpl yin zhi was very very funny.
xD enjoying de whole team interaction !~
gonna change team i/c ler.
wondering hu will de nxt one b ?
hmm... xD
anyway, after dat we had to fall in again.
first lecture was given by Miss Clarie Cho,
bout intructions stuffs.
how to b a gd lecturer,
boring ~ zZz
but i did pay attention.
after dat Mdm Xu gave us a talk bout Ranks and Appointments.
it was okie la, but kinda boring too. xD
but i bear wid it and pay fullest attention too ?
den, lunch. finally~
chicken rice. it was kinda dry and not warm.
totally yuckie, or isit bcux i was eatin chicken
rice dis few days ? lol.
lecture again. dis tym by Sir William.
nice one !~ i was paying attention de whole lecture.
it was bout evactuation.(duno how to spell la. -.-")
funny all de way and Sir Willam made it fun and intersting.
last lecture was given bout Sir Tay which oreadi dint sign on ~
so suprised to c him today.
but de lecture ..
was BORING !~
I was totally lyk .. zZz
cannot even concentrate. i was sleepy la.
hhaax. den it was a little briefing
given by Sir Jianwen.
we are goin to Pula Ubin !!~
dunring one day of de camp !~
so so excited !~ and de best part is !~
we get to ATAY OVERNIGHTTTT.
YAY !~ XD XD XD.

today,
nth much la. jux woke up at 8 plus bcux june was goin out
at 10plus. and i nid her to guild mii at maple.
now im tired. and its only one plus.
tmr 's course day ~
so terrified yet xcited. (= hope tmr will
b a fun day !~ xD

haizz. anyway, ytd early in de morning i had to climb
up for tution. i was almost late to meet alexia.
but alexia was even later. we reached de mrt station at bout 0830.
we past alot of mrt trains so dat we wont reach mr kheng's
hse too early. xD Mr kheng taught us bout curved graphs and straight lined
graphs to recap our memory.
after tution. we were tinking of watching over de hedge wid angela.
but.. dat ting cropped up. (prevoius post.)
tings aside we went to take alexia's passport size phots at tamp mart.
and settled for lunch at tamp mart de mac !~ lol.
den we went to tamp mall after dat, decided to watch x-men
at century square since golden village was packed.
de show was 1310 and we went in straight after we got our tickets.
de show was kinda nice at de last part. but, de front part mayb due to my
little understanding. it turned out to b a kinda boring show. yawns *
lol. (=
after de show we went to B1 de staircase to slack.
and i tried to post usin my hp.
but it failed. XD
after dat, angela and hui ting came and left.
we slacked and slacked.. we went to DBS building de toilet to
slack and tok a few lame fotos der.
lol. we were bored la. den it was almost tym to mit team 7 at tamp
mrt, waited for all of dem to come. den we set off to tamp library.
team 6, and some other teams were der too. (cant rem de rest of de teams. )
in de library, de librarian told us to keep quiet cux all of us were too noisy ! xD
we decided to go to sun plaza park instead. in a kinda big void deck or sth.
it was very hot der ? keep sweating ? lol..
dint did much der la, jux hlped wan jing slip de paper in de name tag !~
almost all of us r slacking and did nth much,
playing here and der. lol. at bout 6plus.
i went hme alone. cux alexia's team haven finsh der stuffs.
den i took 28 hme.
and i was lyk.. zzz
so sianx.. de bus jounery took bout 30 mins ?
tiring day. blah.

here to post again.
zzz. i saw angela post..
and my reaction was lyk ~
wadeva la. i dun tink wad i said was wrong lor.
even so, u care for ur team more den mii and alexia ?
argHh. totally pissed off, bcux she ay i hav a fcuking attidute.
ya right. FINE. but de fact is, u really ps-ed mii and alexia ?
i was having tution wen u sms-ed mii ?
i told u all i had tution.
i saw someone sended mii a msg. but how i can i read it wen my teacher
is BESIDE MII ?!
u all went to watch de show before us, FINE.
and yt, i asked u whether u
wanted to watch x-men on alexia's birthday and u said c first.
u dint tell mii u were goin to watch ytd.
and angela, u said it was last min decision.
and u only told mii dat wen i msg-ed u ?

haizz. fine, everything is my fault la.
i tried to apologised firt bcux i knew junco was
coming, and i dint wan to affect our team or
even platoon spirt. but now ?
i find dat it's wrong to even make dat first step.
haizz. and i can say frankly, my place hav oreadi been replaced by
ur team le lor. last tym is we four tgt.. den now ?
wid xueling and even hui ting.
compeition camp changed EVERYTHING.
even wen u all tok bout stuffs. u all owaes say things bout compeition.
and do u all even noe how i feel ?
left out, understand ? mayb dat happened bcux i prevoiusly closer
wid dorothy and gang. but, i came back ?
and i noe sticking to dorothy dey all, is my fault.
but, i did came back and do u all noe how it feels to b stucked in between
u guys and dorothy dey all ? i once told my prob to angela.
but, dat dint solved anything.
she told mii her prob instead..
haizz, nth is solved and dis prob is still der.
yt.. u noe wen u said c first,
mayb u will watch de show tgt wid us on alexia's birthday,
i pushed angela's appointment jux for u ?
and i tot of waitin for u to watch de show tgt.
but u.. haizz. forget it.
u ps-ed instead...